Can you say BITCH

I had a very disturbing phone conversation with the bitch from the child support extortion company. It was unsettling to me that someone could be so crass, uncaring, and so unempathetic. She assured me that it was her job to squeeze every penny possible from me. She mocked me as I tried to explain that I was street performing, to make ends meet. She didn't believe that I was struggling and hinted that I had some secret wealth. News to me.

I almost wrote her a searing email, but better judgement prevailed. This is not a woman I want to make an enemy of. I have been paying as much as I can to my child support but the back support is stacking up fast. I am fucked. It is certainly affecting my moods and puts suicidal thoughts in my mind daily.

Jogged with Kirk today and yesterday. Steering clear of drugs and alcohol lately but my thirst to kill my pain is very real even if that solution is not.

Oh, what a tangled web we weave.

I blew off going to Eugene to see Shawn and Lee. Didn't make me happy to do that but after having my bank account cleaned out by the cuild support bitch, I am trying desperately to put October's rent together.