Skydiving

Freefalling

Wind Ripping

Heart Breaking

Shattered Glass

A Mirror

Staring at my reflection

so broken up

negative,destructive behavior

knashing of teeth

from the pits of hell

maybe not that bad

but it sounded good

The shop is in the Hospice mode right now. I'm just trying to make myself as comfortable as possible. Soon it will be over and life will move on. I have been taking down all the pictures and boxing up my hardwork one miricle at a time. I'd be a liar if I didn't acknowledge the great sense of loss. First my wife and family (a steep price I paid for misguided priorities),an now this.

All in a day, that's what I say. I had a strong day today blowing out everyting at 50% off.

Landlords Response

Hi Tom,

The 20th of this month is ok with Tim. Sorry that it didn't work out.
Currently all of our storage space in the building is rented. Give me a
call if you have any questions. I am always available for a phone call.

Eric Hansen
O'Keefe Development Corporation

Laying it on thick for the landlord

Eric,
I am ashamed to even call you on the phone. My shit just goes from bad to worse. My wife and her lawyer got a Writ of Garnishment and cleaned out my bank accounts causing me to bounce my apartment rent check, car insurance and child support. I am now being evicted from my apartment for being 2 months late there as well. What I am trying to say is, I don't see getting current anytime soon. I had 3 $30 days last week and did less than $250 for the whole weekend. I owe everybody and their brother money and I feel like my world is caving in on me. I have only one option and that is to vacate. It's not what I want to do, but I understand you need to have a profitable and paying tenant. When do you want me out by? I need to figure out where to put all the stuff that I have in the back room. You guys don't have any storage space do you? Can you give me till the 20th? Let me know.


Sincerely,

Tom Frank

Silver Lining

I had a great time with the kids tonight. Having all 4 of my beautiful children together with me at the park this evening did me a world of good. It kind of put things in perspective for me. My life may be complicated at times, but life has blessed me with some simple pleasures that they haven't taken away from me yet. The time I spend with my kids is some of the best time I spend at all. They are all growing into their own unique personalities. It's awefully wonderful to be a part of.

Buster and I took a long walk this evening (2 hours). We walked from the apartment to the park on the water. We sat and watched a beautiful sunset as we discussed movie ideas. We're going to make a short film. We just need to figure out what kind of story we want to tell.

The axe is falling

e-mail from the shop landlord -

We show that you are two (2) months past due. We need you to pay rent and be current with your rent payments or vacate the premises. Please let me know if you have a schedule/plan by which you know that you can get current quickly. The other alternative is to vacate the premises and pay past due balances. Please let me know how you would like to proceed.

A evening with my children

The Beginning of a new week. . . and a new life.

Buster is excited about seeing his little brothers and sister. We will see them for 2 and a half hours later today. From 4PM - 6:30PM. I've done a few demos but no sales yet. Guess I'll close up shop around 3PM. I am past the point of stressing out about store closure to see my kids. Buster has been turning me on to some movies lately: Clerks, Mall Rats, Chasing Amy and Dogma. All interesting movies that chronicle the progression of a writer / director. I've always thought I had a good movie or two in me. I like writing.


I have been wasting huge amounts of time, not focusing on the near future and the changes that are about to happen. . . Whether I like it or not. To some extent I have lived my life floating on the wings of angels. If I'm not careful my whole scene could come crashing down on me. I must prepare for a soft landing, or at least an approach that allows me to attack running.


How about I spend a couple hours this week trying to book some Country Club gigs. That would be nice!! I will do it!!

Love, Passion & Magic

I still love both of my ex-wives. I love my 4 kids and I have always loved magic. I love everyone of my failed dreams and I have tried to be a good person. It's late at night, or early in the morning and I probably should just go to sleep.


Something is on my mind. Unresolved passion. I need to focus, not wallow in self pity. I've been depressed and sleeping alot. I want to feel joy but I'm having trouble seeing it.


Opportunity exists around every corner, I just need to see it and grab it by its motherfucking throat and squeeze.


My life is like this God damn sticky space bar. Words running together and me having to go back, put the curser between the words and put the space where it belongs.


Enough nonsense. Time for bed.

It's been a drug free week. Time to score some kind bud.