Alki Beach

Can't Sleep

It's 3:36AM and I just can't sleep. At 8:00AM I am picking up the truck, calling Kayma and starting the migration from downtown to Alki Beach. I was at the house last night taking a load of stuff and feeling very good about things. With a week of sobriety under my belt, things are becoming more clear. I was chatting online with my good buddy Mike Gallo and he had an interesting observation. He said, "If you want to start a new life, you have to leave the old one behind". This will be the third new life in less than two years; thats got to be some kind of record.

So, I am moving, resurrecting my performing career and trying to focus my energies towards the goals and riches that are mine. . . or will be in the near future. Industrial Strength Magic will live again and so will I!

After dropping off the stuff at the new house, I popped by the New Orleans to say hi to Hazel. She is a doll who I am about to get to know a little better. She asked me out for coffee a while ago, now it's time to make that a priority. It's been so long since I've had any romance. I don't know what Hazel has in mind, but it sure would be nice.

Another Day Another Fifty Cents

Depressed

I am depressed. I wish I could get my head straight. Today is day 5 with no drugs or alcohol. Thought that might make a difference. I feel like getting some pot and getting stoned. Tonight is honky tonk night at the Owl & Thistle. Julie will be there with Zak and the gang. Might get in a few dances. If I go, I will want to get smashed. But I will try and use my will power to prevent myself from becoming a sloppy drunk. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Buster and I went to see the new Wil Smith movie I, Robot. Strangely enough we saw Julie and her boyfriend coming out of another movie. We chatted breifly and parted ways.

I am lonely on top of being depressed. I'll see the kids this evening. Buster is going to have dinner with Moira. Why can't I find peace. Why do I feel destined to be a prisioner of my own dissatisfaction. I am trying to move forward, I just seem stuck.

Whatever.

Tough Day On The Streets

Tough Day On The Streets