Harry Houdini

Max building the future

Liam getting big

Hope being silly

Jogging in the rain

The only one out there jogging in the rain at 11:30AM was me. Jogged 2 miles without stopping and walked one more.

I'll be seeing the kids from 2-6:30PM really looking forward to that. They seem to provide the joy and happiness that I so desperately need.

I'll also be going to Honky Tonk Night at the Owl and Thistle at 10PM. Julie is back from Spain and we'll get in some dancing and If I know me, some drinking.

Lost and confused like a puppy wandering out into the street to get hit by a car.

That's nice.

Harry Garrison the Smoke Ring King

I will be going to Cincinnati Oct. 4-10th. I will certainly get together with my old pal Harry.

Bringing entertainment to those who bring entertainment

Sunday I had some strong street performances at the Pike Place Market "Busker Festival"

After one of my shows, an englishman introduced himself to me and asked if I would be in town on Tuesday. I said I would and he told me that he would like to hire me for a private party at Lowell's. 2 hours of strolling magic for an international audience of entertainment providers for the airlines; the people that place the movies, radio, magazines etc. on the planes. An interesting gig that went very well. The guy who runs Lowell's (a popular seafood restaurant at the market) took me aside and told me that he liked my work. He was impressed that I could effectively entertain a large table of Japanese folks that spoke little or no english. He asked for my card and said that occasionally there were private parties that might like a little magic.

I felt very good and went home to make a salad and watch the season premier of NYPD Blue. During my TV show a neighbor (two houses away) stopped by. Her name was was Kathryn and she said that she was a bit drunk. She asked if I wanted to come over and socialize. I told her that I was eating and watching a TV program. I aked her If I could come over when I was done. She said 20 minutes, I said maybe another time.

Am I missing something here, am I just plain stupid or has my year and a half of no sex dulled my sword.

All I know is I am lonely and unhappy.

Can you say BITCH

I had a very disturbing phone conversation with the bitch from the child support extortion company. It was unsettling to me that someone could be so crass, uncaring, and so unempathetic. She assured me that it was her job to squeeze every penny possible from me. She mocked me as I tried to explain that I was street performing, to make ends meet. She didn't believe that I was struggling and hinted that I had some secret wealth. News to me.

I almost wrote her a searing email, but better judgement prevailed. This is not a woman I want to make an enemy of. I have been paying as much as I can to my child support but the back support is stacking up fast. I am fucked. It is certainly affecting my moods and puts suicidal thoughts in my mind daily.

Jogged with Kirk today and yesterday. Steering clear of drugs and alcohol lately but my thirst to kill my pain is very real even if that solution is not.

Oh, what a tangled web we weave.

I blew off going to Eugene to see Shawn and Lee. Didn't make me happy to do that but after having my bank account cleaned out by the cuild support bitch, I am trying desperately to put October's rent together.